I hope I'll get used to the tight schedule soon so I can make time to update more.
D-I-Y shoes can be pretty awesome, saw a few while searching online...so tempted to buy a pair of white canvas shoes and go crazy. I saw a pair of white canvas shoes when I bought my black pair of shoes. (stupid, grey was like *poof* gone!~ so much for new arrivals. Luckily the grey shoes at home are still in working condition) Hopefully Mama won't flip when she finds out I bought new shoes. But hey, it's my own $$$, it's not even over $20 so she should not complain, my shoes were wearing out (excuses~ but heck, need them for practicals) Excuse for buying lotsa sneakers/closed toed shoes - Practicals. I need to buy pumps, I have Z-E-R-O pumps at home, how saddening.

Talk about shoes, after much thought, I think I should put myself in her shoes. If I was not in the right mood, I might have done the same thing too would I? Hmm...

My stupid sneakers gave me a blister on my pinkie toe. :c Painful. My bag strap buckle broke today, I had to carry my bag on one shoulder. Hurts. It was sunny today. Hot. Can the day get any worse than this, no, cause when I got home I could still talk happily and crack a joke with Mama who was left at home all day despite everything cause I know Mama went through more than I did. Must've been hard for her, more than 2 hours of loneliness, she started calling people up. The feeling of stepping through the door, feels wonderful to be home.

First 2 days of semester is indescribable. Please give me the strength to fight on, thank you.


I scalded my tongue today :c Maybe I was too impatient, didn't let the piping hot Ban Mian cool and just stuffed it into my mouth. My tongue is in pain now~ Hurts to eat cause when the food comes into contact with my tongue it's just stings. I think this is the price to pay for scolding Indra/telling white lies? I still feel guilty about it though.

Saw many face masks at John Little today which I'm itching to buy cause it's cheap but there's just too many, I was spoiled for choice. I wish I could buy everything :x Kinda regret not buying it though. I hope I can get it on Sunday or something. Have been wanting to buy the shoes that I saw at Bata, but no size :c *big sigh* I shall try the IMM branch *prays* and Daiso & Artbox disappointed me T^T why no more stocks?!~ Uniqlo's sweat parka, have been thinking of getting it cause of the discount, but no black colour :C The only thing that I bought this week is the Essentials Shampoo, Conditioner & Treatment (it's dirt cheap) which I've yet to try since I'm trying to finish off the Sunsilk ones a.s.a.p. This week is kinda epic fail~

Watched Cloudy With a Chance of Meatballs today with Unnie. It was funny~ The movie made me hungry cause there was just TOO MUCH FOOD. I wished I had the machine in my house so I can order anything anytime just buy pouring water into a machine. That'll be uber cool, I don't mind investing in that kinda machine. I want to watch 500 Days of Summer!~

I have this annoying pimple on my nose, I bet the pimple is embedded deep in my nose because it's just a painful red dot on my nose. Feel like Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer. Hate to have a pimple on the nose, when you're talking to people they'll stare at your nose cause there's a foreign red thing on your nose and I bet they are itching to squeeze it. Hey Pimple, GO AWAY& FINGERS STOP PLAYING WITH PIMPLE PLEASE~

Just read like many pages of reviews on beauty products :x so hardcore~ See how bored I am? But I think I won't be bored next week cause SCHOOL IS STARTING and next week almost everyone is like on HOLIDAY. The first lesson of the semester will be about LOVE. 8AM on Monday 19102009, people still at home sleeping away, I'm at school learning about love, alongside the rest of the unlucky SP students. Why? Cause I enrolled myself in the 'Love Relations for Life - A Journey of Romance, Love & Sexuality' for general elective module. Psychology has no more space, BOOOOO so disappointing, I should've logged in earlier and grabbed the seats but noooo since it was my first time logging in I was such a slow poke!~ Didn't even know how to navigate the pages okay. Maybe I can even blame the browser, IE is so slow. But heck, the module might be fun. We'll see on Monday. 6 weeks have gone so fast. :c Time to mug again. Luckily Mid Sem test is before the holidays on 12 December. 12 December is like so far away now~ 12 December would be a very good day (CRACK CRACK CRACK CRACK, yea V.I. like this)~ Must do well for this semester, I must I must!~ Who knows, maybe if I work hard enough, God will bless me with more than 3.5 or maybe if I worked really hard I might even get a four point o? Hmm...they say upcoming semester is more challenging, really hope I'll do well!~

Talking about doing well. When I went visiting with the school mates, there was this house (think it's Zulfarhan's house? yes I think it is) which really struck me cause I saw this contract. The contract was between the father and the daughter (me guessing it's Zulfarhan's younger sister). It stated that if she did well for O's (7 dist.) the father will fully sponsor her trip to Japan. If she doesn't get 7 dist., there was a list of things that she would get with every dist. that she achieves. Am I even allowed to say these things on my blog? Haha, not trying to expose their family or something but I think she' really lucky.~ Maybe I should do that too though I know full sponsorship to travel is a bit too much. I think I shall not involve my father, he has enough bills to pay I guess. Maybe I'll sign a contract with myself (O.o?), reward myself if I do well, I sound very absurd over here but I think I should try it. Who knows.

I think I should head to bed. It's 3 am in the morning, so much for saying that I need to alter my body clock.


I need new pairs of shoes. If I had alot of $$$ I would splurge on Adidas J wings but damm, ME NOT RICH ENOUGH  :c how bloody sad those shoes are too pretty to be true.Why must the shoes be so pretty and pricey? WHY?!

MY LEGS ACHE TO THE CORE~ :c blame the Hari Raya outing with CPS friends. It's like land expedition in heels. The weather was bright, cheery & HELLA HOT. Nonetheless, had a blast with them. Didn't expect many to come but surprise surprise, a crowd turned up. We shared like all the memories from crushes to pranks to fights~ Primary school was just funny. After the outing, I was really full because there was just too much food in my system and my legs were begging for mercy. A new trend should come out - Raya clothes with sneakers for gals (for zero pain while visiting) Someone please start the trend already. Me not a trendsetter so please someone please do it and spare us from the agony of heels. I cannot fathom how girls can actually strut their stuff in heels all day long, the thought of it is just O.O painful. I know heels are just lovely but they are lovely to admire, make shorties taller but they are foes to your feet and your back!

GEMs registration is sooooo troublesome man :c why can't it be in the morning? School is starting next week. ONE MORE WEEK AND BACK TO SCHOOL. 8 - 5 timetable sucks *screams, groans, whines, cries, bitch fits* :c Really worried for next semester, must do well or else go to hell. :x Must be consistent, gonna aim high high~ cannot get any lower or I will be in big trouble and that's a biggie! I'm not looking forward to the 3 hours of Math and 4 hours of IO Chem. That's just utterly INSANE. What tough luck man seriously. AHHHH~ *another round of screams, groans, whines, cries, bitch fits*

I feel like joining a CCA that involves exercise, I heard it's good for insomnia. I only managed to fall asleep at 7 yesterday morning, not cool considering the fact that school's gonna start really soon, must alter body clock back. I cannot survive school with one hour of zzz, will turn into a zombie~

Gonna rant on this certain someone that I met and I can't believe we used to be close, USED TO like some eons ago which I cannot comprehend why~ Seriously, do yourself a favour and grow up please. It seems like you're attracting attention in a very negative way, a lot of people don't like it if you're not aware. Maybe you're acting that way cause of a certain someone or certain people I should say but we know you know that acting that way won't really be attractive to that someone/people so you're just gonna blow your chance which you're vying for. I mean no offence but seriously what are you thinking? In some areas, you have never changed for the better, maybe it's part of your character, maybe it make you who you are now, but seriously it's kinda irritating to observe. There are time when I feel like giving you a tight slap so you can wake up, but I didn't cause I know it'll make it worse, me don't want to be scratched yo! Hah, don't ask who really, I won't bother answering. Maybe I'm being too straightforward/obvious, but heck, sometimes you just have to know it the hard way. no offence, still respect you (Y) Wish you all the love in the world.

I'm gonna watch movie after so long laterrrrrr wooo~ There's band later booo~ I might buy stuff later oooo~
Just ranting out my feelings, you don't have to read it know?

I feel like a failure. Ear drums vibrating to the max, head pounding, eyes hot, nose running, that can't be good. I don't want to feel like this, but it's hard to ignore this feeling when it keeps coming like some tsunami. I have expectations of myself too and one of them is to be there for you no matter what, to help you in any way I can cause I choose to and I want to. But I can't, and in that aspect I fail, I = EPIC FAIL. Well, it's not the first time I've been a failure, sometimes I feel like I've always been one. All the promises that I wrote in blue, aren't they all just bullshit? It's easy to write them but to execute them is just difficult for me and that's why I fail. I shouldn't have promised you anything if I had known that I couldn't do them well enough. It hurts so much to know that you can't open up to me cause you think I have paradigms about you or your way of thinking cause I don't freaking do that. I might be opinionated about things but I don't do that to people who are close to me. But I guess I can't blame you if you don't want to breathe a word about it to me. I just thought if you let it out, you would at least feel better or at least I can take away some of the weight on your shoulders. Maybe it's just wishful thinking on my part, that I would be one of those people you'll confide in when you have problems or issues. Well maybe I was wrong to think that way. Sometimes I wish I had the power to make you happy all the time, but I don't. Maybe it's just a phase and it'll go away. Like how I have headaches the week before Red Riding Hood come to visit. Like the 2 weeks before Prelims, or the week of Band Camp if you remembered. I don't know what to say or do to make you feel better. Maybe you don't need me to do that, maybe you just need sometime alone to sort out your thinking. Maybe you need the space without the constant 'why?'. I don't know~~ T^T and not knowing just sucks. Sometimes I even wonder whether feeling this way is even normal or maybe it's just too much on my side. I don't even know who to tell my feelings to, that's why I'm ranting it out here. I don't even dare to tell you about it, you have enough on your brain, I don't need to burden you with what I feel, cause it's not time for my feelings most definitely no biggie. I just hope you'll get over it asap. Fighting. There's other things in life that's much more important I hope you realise that. Life's too short to brood over things we want, cause what's more important is what we need and what we have. Sigh, don't even know whether this would even convince you, if only I know what will do the trick, but that's unfortunately beyond my control. Just so you know, I'm not angry or annoyed with you if you're wondering. If I do publish this, if you do read it, only God knows what would happen next.
IT'S OCTOBER ALREADY?! :c 14 more days to school, NOOOOOOOOOOO~ although, I don't mind if it's without the lectures and all. Although staying home, doing nothing but sleeping has made me missed studying. Once term starts I'll definitely miss sleeping more than 12 hours every day, it's like a sleeping marathon! :D


Ice cream for breakfast is weird (although i don't mind ROCKMELON FLAVOUR~ that totally rocked my tastebuds and i keep pronouncing it as ROCKLEMON) and ION is huge. I won't mind going for the Swensens Ice cream buffet again (only if it's free and I don't have to fork out anything). Strawberries tastes better with white chocolate in my opinion.

Paramore's new single is <3!~ It's been a long time, sounds refreshing to the ears, Hayley sounds as amazing as ever. I envy her, those vocal cords are to die for man. A few days ago, I was walking in a store and That's What You Get was playing, woahhhh all the CT memories was running in my mind and I started singing; haven't forgotten the lyrics. I kinda missed it. It's been a year. :/ *sings* Ignorance is your new bestfriend, Ignorance is your new bestfriend~ Okay officially addicted to the song~

I'm bored :/

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